Good times with my Mom

In my 6th day at the hospital, me and my Mom has a good conversation.

We miss each other's company. We talked about my marriage, for having a wonderful baby and etc. She also share's story to me about her love story with my Dad and the things that I did when I was a baby.

I really miss my Mom a lot, when the time I got married. So, I took the chance and enjoy the time together.

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March 4, 2008

At 3am, I woke up because my lower part of my stomach is contracting and there's a lot of blood in my bed.

So we called a Nurse immediately to informed this. The contraction is still on going, blood continously flowing. My pads is full of blood, one of the Nurses and Doctor is worried so they add some medicine to me, so that the baby will survived.

Me and my Husband is worried about this. We already accepted that the baby is not meant for us. Still we are praying that he or she will survived.

My Husband called my Mom about this. So my Mom rushed to go back in the hospital. She bring my younger Brother. At morning when I woke up, I saw them and checking me if I'm alright.

There's an additional problem, one of the representative of our company's insurance visited my room and informing us that they might not covered my hospital bills. It is because my case was pregnancy related. They informed us that if it is a pregnancy related issue, they're not cover it.

We are now worried about my hospital bill, since we are in one of the expensive hospital in the Metro.

We talked about it, my Mom decided to seek helped in PCSO and my Husband is much worried 'coz we dont have any extra money to pay for it.

March 3, 2008

My 4th day in the hospital, I'm feeling quite alright 'coz I can stand and sit, of course with their support.

I was able to go to the comfort room and refreshed myself.
My Doctor also advised me to have a soft diet and I can also drink water. Yes, finally I taste the water again and eat some soft foods.

In the later afternoon, there's one thing I noticed to myself. When my husband accompanied me to the comfort room, there is a blood stain in my underwear, it's brownish in color. I didn't took it seriously, I thought it's normal.

When we got back to my room, I just took a sit in a chair, when suddenly I feel something underneath my underwear it's just like a flowing blood came out from me.

So we called a Nurse immediately and reported this. She advised me to have a disposable pad so that we could monitor the blood that will came out.

From time to time, they checked my blood pressure and they advised me to have a bed rest.

I'm worried now, 'coz I'm thinking about my baby, he or she might not survived.

So my husband adds an extra care and he also make sure that I have my rest.

March 2, 2008

This is the 2nd day of my operation, and my 3rd day in the hospital. Still I'm in NPO (no water, no foods to be taken).

It's hard for me to move because of the operation, but I force myself, at least to took a sit and watch a television.
I told to my Husband that I want to drink a water, but he refuse. Instead he get a small piece of cotton, and wet it. He put it in my lips and dampened it.
Me and my husband has a small conversation about what happened. He also advised me to took care of myself so that it will not happened again. Also, we talked about the baby inside. We are hoping that he or she will survived despite of the operation that I had.

When one of Nurse came into the room, I asked what are those 3 bottles that was attached to me. She said that the 1st bottle is the dextrose, the 2nd one is the bottle for the baby so he or she will survived, the 3rd one is the medicine. That time I was relaxed, at least my baby has a support inorder for her or him to survived.

In the afternoon, my family visited me, my Mom, GrandMa, my Brother and Sis was there. Their caress and love is warm.

We have a wonderful dinner that time. My husband decided to go home 'coz he miss our son, and he wants to checked if he is ok. So my Mom, left and stay with me. We also have a good conversation about things and life.

March 1, 2008

I heard a voice, a voice of a middle aged woman saying "Apple, Apple, Apple, gising na (wake up)".

I slowly opened my eyes, and I saw my Mom staring at me and keep saying those words.

I just finished my operation, and I saw myself with dextrose and the other 2 bottles (I dont know the name of the rest), and they keep checking my blood pressure and get some blood samples for testing.

I didn't say anything to my Mom, but to smile at her 'coz all I knew is I'm feel tired and sleepy.

I woke up and checked the room's clock, it was 3 am, the Nurse whose beside me, told me that she need to put some medicines on me. I asked her if it hurts, she told me that it doesn't hurt coz she mix some water into it . She took care of me, and I saw my Mom looks like tired but her caring is still there, and I went to sleep again to regain strength.

The Nurse who took care of me that time, woke me up, and she's saying goodbye coz it's the end of her shift. So, I thank her and say take care.

At morning I'm still in the Recovery Room, there are lots of patients. Some of them, just got delivered with their babies and some of them also had their operations (other cases of ovarian diseases). I asked one Nurse, If I will going to be transferred to my room, they said that, still there's no available rooms for me, since our company's insurance will took care for that.

At exactly 1 pm, all Nurses fix all my dextrose and my bed 'coz they will going to transferred me in my own room. When they moving my bed, outside the OB-GYNE dept., I saw my son Nathaniel (1 yr old and 10 months), my husband Alfred, my Mom, my Mom in law, my Sis in law and his son Daniel, the sisters Rose and Salie (these 2, took care my son and Daniel).

I feel their support and caring.

I cried when I saw my son, 'coz I like to hugged him and kissed him same with my Husband.

When the Nurses moving my bed, I heard my son voice crying and saying "Mama, Mama".

I can't do anything, but to cry.

When I'm in my room, I saw all the people who supported me and gave cares.

All of them cheering me up, saying some jokes, when my mom in law say that I'm an Alien now, because I am not complete anymore because of my operation. I explained to them that the Doctors only removed all the blood and the cyst in my ovary, but when my Husband whispers me that my operation is not like that, and then I asked why? he said that he will explained to me later.

All the people in my room decided to go home same with my Mom. Then my Husband explained to me that my operation requires to remove my right ovary and fallopian tube because of the ruptured hemorraghic cyst in my ovary. I was shocked, I felt like that I am not complete anymore, the system that makes me as a whole WOMAN is now INCOMPLETE.

That time, I thought that the love of my Husband will be lessen because of what happened,

and I am COMPLETELY WRONG.

Instead, I felt his warmth love and care, the feeling of our 1st time kissed.

I can't explained why, all I know is I AM THE LUCKIEST WOMAN in the world for having a MAN like him.